Choose to Believe
A gentle, honest guide to conscious grieving and the choice to believe that love survives death.
I didn’t write this book because I had all the answers. I wrote it because, on September 18, 2008, I received a phone call in the early morning hours that completely changed my world. My son Bryan had been killed. He was just 23 years old. I wasn’t sure how to get through it — or even if I wanted to.
What happened next is what this book is about.
Not the grief, though the grief is in here, honestly and completely. But what came after. The signs I couldn’t explain away. The voice I heard — out loud, with my ears — three weeks after he died. The slow, painstaking, extraordinary discovery that Bryan had not disappeared. He had changed form.
I made him a promise: I would find him. And then I would share with others how I did it.
This book is the story of how I kept that promise.
What you’ll find
Choose to Believe isn’t just a grief manual filled with steps; It’s a comforting companion on your journey. It honestly shares a mother’s experience through the unimaginable — and reveals what is waiting on the other side of that.
You’ll discover the tools that brought me comfort: spiritual practices, meditations, and ways of listening that I came to trust. And, I invite you to believe what I now hold to be true — that the love you feel for someone you’ve lost hasn’t disappeared. Joy is still within reach. The connection doesn’t end at death.
Feel free to take your time reading through it. You can break it into sections to make it easier. Whenever a chapter resonates with you, be sure to read it and enjoy the journey.
“Paige Lee has experienced the indescribable pain and horror of the death of a beloved. Step-by-step-by-step Paige has consciously created her own radiant resurrection. Her powerful book Choose to Believe tells that story in a way that you can make it your story. Paige generously shares her knowledge, her wisdom, and the tools she gathered along the way so that you, too, can become radiant. If you are interested in healing your shattered heart following the death of your beloved, this is a must read. A must read!”
“In her new book, Choose to Believe, Paige Lee delivers life experiences woven together by strength and courage. Her world would forever be changed, but we discover that miracles, healing, and the afterlife inspired and encouraged her to see beyond loss. Paige teaches how to awaken a new understanding of living beyond the loss, seeing the signs from beyond, and finding joy on your journey through grief.”
“Through this work, Paige has proven that love lives forever and that our loved ones in spirit are still right here, cheering us on and encouraging us to move forward into a more positive, purpose-driven life, knowing that each breath we take guides us closer to our children in spirit. I know that Bryan is very proud of his mama!”
From Real Readers
Choose to Believe was written for anyone who is in the middle of loss and can’t see the other side of it yet. It is equally for those who are years out from a loss and still quietly wondering if joy is available to them. You don’t need to be spiritual. You don’t need to believe in anything yet. You just need to be open to the possibility that the love you have for the person you lost hasn’t gone anywhere — and that neither have they.
