I want to return to intuitive writing and share what it looks like for me in later grief.
Initially, my practice was only about receiving messages from or about Bryan. I would sit with my journal, desperate for any message confirming that the connection with Bryan was still there. The writing delivered messages that sounded like him, confirming his presence.
That need has shifted. The messages still come, but I write intuitively now to ask what is being asked of me, not whether he’s there or whether I’m okay, but what I’m supposed to do with all of this.
For me, intuitive writing in later grief is less about receiving comfort and more about receiving direction.
Writing has become my favorite way to connect with what I truly believe — that inner knowing beneath surface thoughts. When I feel confused about a decision, unsure about where to go next, or stuck in some way I can’t quite describe, I turn to my journal with a question. I write until a piece of wisdom emerges that feels wiser than my usual thoughts.
It still surprises me. It has been many years, and the practice still surprises me. That is how I know it is real.
If you’ve been writing intuitively for a while and notice your practice changing—no longer urgent or desperate, with messages shifting—that’s growth! Let it evolve into what it wants to become.